Party Conundrum

Still here and enjoying a nice afternoon thunderstorm. I love that smell and the sound of thunder. The air is cool for June. In twelve days I will mark the 50th revolution of the earth with me on it. Talia has promised to make me cake and brownies as long as I acknowledge that I share my birthday with Neil Patrick Harris. I can do that. Chloe has made a work of art for me that was put into the kiln at school last Friday; I am so excited to see what she created just for me.

I decided to have a casual get-together the night of my birthday. It is a Friday, and I've told some local friends to come by if they would like to celebrate with us. I have been going back and forth trying to decide if I want a party in a restaurant or at my house, and I decided on my house because I would not like it if I planned something public and people were not able to show. I live far from family members whose presence I would like to be in as I here the "click" of the age clock, so many of them cannot be here. We have some family in NY, but they may not be able to drive up. So, I'm going to set up my canopy on the deck and string some white lights all around, put the speakers in the living room window and play a list of my favorite songs.

I want to celebrate 50, but I know that this marks more than half of my life gone. I've had a challenge this year with my health, and I hope I will make the changes necessary; I'm not sure if I have the will; I still have some things that hold me back.

I will not be able to drink much wine at my party, which is a sad thing. I enjoy wine and I don't want to have to curtail my consumption, but blood-thinner meds are no joke. They dictate what I can and cannot do just now.

So I will have an uber-casual party on my birthday and hope for the best!